Friday's Letters

Dear Friday's Letters I have missed you! These posts always make me so happy! Dear Lake Hopatcong I miss you come back into my life (loving photoshoots at work!!) Dear Shea I see you tomorrow which is really Friday but I am posting this on Thursday because I can't post this on Friday....so yea... I see you in 24 hours!! whoop whoop!! Dear Work I lover you lots. I am so glad I found an awesome job which I can't wait to get to everyday! Dear Weather thanks for being horrible and knocking my dish network out at the hotel and boring me to tears!! Not fair :( Dear Dish Network why does anyone have you???!! You stop working at the drop of one rain drop and are in a fight with a different network every week!!! Dear Hotel Can you tell all children under the age of 15 to be in bed by 10pm at least so I don't have to hear them run around at midnight!! Dear Shea (cause lovable fiances always get 2!) Can't wait to go to the yankees game Saturday!!! And have fun summer activities!!

I am back bloggers! Happy Friday and happy weekend! :)

Checking In

I have been the worst blogger ever.... worst in history...

But, then I look back at not blogging for almost a month and I don't feel bad about it.

I don't feel bad about not taking a picture this past weekend when Shea and I went mini-golfing...or on July 4th when all the family came over.

Yes, it would be nice to have a picture to look at that, but then I just love relaxing and having the memory with me also.

That feels just as good. That still feels right.

I am still alive. Still kicking!

Just living in a hotel for 3 MORE WEEKS!! I can't believe it's almost over.

But, then again I am glad it's almost over.

I LOVE my job. LOVE LOVE LOVEEE! 

I just don't love being away from family.

Having to skype my dinners or hear laughter over a phone call and not know why they are laughing.

It sucks, and can ultimately put you in a depression.

I would hate it more or be more unhappy if I didn't LOVE my job, and weren't counting down the days!

Right now I go to work 9-6 then come home and sit in my hotel for the rest of the night. How boring does that sound?? You would think I would have been an A+++ blogger than.

But, I wasen't I would sit here and be unhappy and watch TV. I actually lost 8lbs! Not huge but when I get unhappy I don't eat, not the other way around.

I guess it can be a good thing.

But, Shea and I talked on how we were both unhappy and needed to do things even if we were apart to make us happy. We both couldn't come home from work and sit in front of the TV. (YES!! you heard that right! Shea got a job finally a couple weeks ago!! So proud of him!!)

So here's to more blogging, exercising!, and happiness for 3 more weeks! (And where one week I go on vacation!! whoop!)

I can get through this I can make it and be home in no time, and then look back and miss the hotel life! 

Well you can't have everything :)

A Hotel Life

Helllooooo! I'm back!

Soooo my fabulous news which you probably figured out by now is that...... I GOT A NEW JOB!! yayyyyyyy!!

I am beyond excited for this new job!! My first day was yesterday and it went sooo sooo well!! The people here are amazing and so helpful, and I LOVE working for a coporation over a small company so far! But, that's just me :)

So, my job is out of state right now until they move to New Jersey at the end of August so, Monday thru Friday I am living in a hotel!!

It's crazy! But, the hotel and area are nice and I am loving it so far! The hotel has a fitness center...an indoor pool, an outdoor pool, laundry, kitchens inside the room, It's great!

My fridge is currently stocked with apples, carrots, ranch dressing, deli meats, bread, yogurt, and vitamin water. My grocery shopping will hopefully improved haha!

Below are pictures of my hotel....

Skype is always needed when your away from your hubby to be :)

End of a Very Short Era

Since I graduated college a year ago..

I have been commuting to the city

and working in the city

My dad has been my commuting buddy

Or I actually "his" commuting buddy

We get on the train together and he gets off at Newark Penn Station

Giving me a kiss on my forehead

A whispered "I love you"

And a sweet smile

And I stay on the train till New York City

It was been like that for a year...

You take for granted the time you spend together

The morning commentary

talking about the weekends' events

or the news on the radio

We would listen to music sometimes

Make jokes at each other's expense

Comment on my dad's driving

Some days we would drive in all the way to my dad's work

Where I would then have him drop me off at the path station

and I would continue on to New York

The long car rides were the best

We would talk the whole time

Laugh at each other

Laugh at him as he curses a bad driver

He cracks me up

I have always been a daddy's girl

I have cherished the time I have spent with him this past year

It's moments that the other 4 kids did not get with him

It's the moments that thinking about them make me teary eyed

I have the special bond with him every morning

The commuter bond.

We know how it is to get up at 6am Monday-Friday

We have to be out the door around 7am

Make a 7:30am train

We know how it feels when a train is late

When a train changes from express to local!

When you get on to a train just to find out it's broken down

To not find a seat on a train and have to stand

To have to sit in the awkward seat across from the bathroom (i hate that seat!)

To deal with annoying commuters who talk loud in the morning

the ones on their cell phone screaming

The babies crying

How it feels to have a power outage on the line and no access to New Jersey

Sitting in a hot train station

Waiting for a train for hours

Forgetting your in the "quiet car" and getting yelled at

We have had a lot of memories

Ones I wouldn't trade for anything

Ones that I will miss in the coming months and years

Ones that could never compete with anything else

Now, I take a new job that is not in the city

One that will change my life upside down for the time being

One where I have to drive every morning (without my daddy)

One where I will be living in a hotel for the months of July and August

One that has no train or daddy to comfort me

Last day commuting together :( my daddy and I cried

It's a big change

But, I am so excited to take on this change

excited for this new adventure!

Big changes, and great memories

But nothing

I mean NOTHING

could take the place of my commuter bond with my daddy :)

ooo and ADIOS New York!!

Pictures: Movies and New Car

This week will be light and probably next week and then I can explain EVERYTHING!!!

But here is some pictures from our week :)

 I LOVE us :) He makes me so happy!

After a hefty day of car shopping and Shea's Nephew's 1st Birthday Party we headed to the movies with my brother and his girlfriend to see Madagascar 3.

My brother is leaving to go abroad the whole month of July in Africa so I want to see him as much as possible before he leaves!

AMAZING movie by the way!! We were laughing the whole time!

Well hello NEW car!! To say I am obsessed with my new 2012 Toyota Rav4 Sport with a V6 engine...would be an understatement. I never have fallen in LOVE with a vehicle before!

Soooo Shea about this whole engagement thing.......

That V6 engine is going to get me in trouble!! But, I love owning a car and something that is just mine and no one elses! It feels like such an accomplishment!

I named her "Ellie" because I love that name and Shea's car is Eleanor so Ellie is the new, improved and young Eleanor haha! So, whenever I talk about my car I say, "Aww I miss Ellie so much :(" Shea just laughs!

Already a HUGE fan. Love my Sophie!!

Happy Wednesday :)

Forgiveness

First off...

Happy Father's Day to my AMAZING Father.

I have always been daddy's girl.

Him and I can do anything together

And talk about anything together

We have always had an amazing relationship

After Shea's father passed away suddenly from a car accident 3 years ago

I have looked at family a new way

You don't know what is going to happen

One day your life is rainbows and cupcakes

Next it's chaos and tears

that day is a day I will always remember

How I felt helpless and didn't know how to comfort Shea

I just knew I needed to be there for him

And I always have been

This past Sunday we laid my Grandfather to rest

His wishes were to have his ashes spread under the Brooklyn Bridge

For fear of staying over in the police department

(you don't go around dumping ashes in New York after 9/11)

We decided the next best place was a harbor

Near where his first house with my grandmother was

As my family gathered around my uncle holding the container of ashes

I bowed my head

The ashes were released and a weight was lifted off

I have not seen my grandfather since I was 13

He became secluded from the family and no one saw him

It was heartbreaking, but we had my grandmother who was our shining light

She is an AMAZING person

The most amazing grandmother you could have

My grandfather married one hell of a woman

Without him my mother would not be here

Without him my aunt and 3 uncles would not be here

Without him my 12 cousins and 4 siblings would not be here

I held anger in my heart for him not being around

I held anger when I learned of his death 3 weeks ago

I didn't cry I was numb

I was hurt

But, I can not blame him nor hold anymore anger to him

He wanted to be around he just couldn't

He has taught me a great lesson

That family is number one

That you shouldn't hold grudges against people

Lighten your heart a little and forgive those who have wronged you

I don't want to have a heavy heart anymore

That's why I am forgiving him

I am forgiving him for missing the parties, the birthdays, the good times, the bad

I am saying "thank you" to him for helping me see how important my family is to me

I am saying "thank you" to him for helping me see that there is no shame in saying "i need help"

I hope he can rest in peace and find his way back to heaven

I hope he can rest easy knowing our family forgave him

I hope he can remind me everyday to not take life for granted

I hope I will see him again one day

Rest in Peace Opa <3

Friday's Letters

Dear Friday yay!! You are here! One more week till Shea's graduation! One more week in the city!! One more week till a new job! Whoop whoop!! Dear Shea thanks for the impromptu dinner yesterday night :) And I love how we were going to go to a fancy italian dinner but it was closed so we settled on pizza haha! Dear Pizza Store Lady thanks for staying open past 10pm to serve us pizza! You were the sweetest lady ever :) Dear New Car whyyyy hello new car I will be buying this weekend!!!!!!!! I have never owned my own car this is crazy this is exciting! This is expensive! :/ Dear Keratin Treatment you work wonders and you make me LOVE my hair during the summer! Obsessed!! Dear Daddy today was our last Friday commuting together!! This is so sad :( I will miss my commuting buddy! Dear Shea I will be your DD tonight if you drive me to the dentist tomorrow....deal...okay deal

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